Showing posts with label Fiction-Psychological. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Fiction-Psychological. Show all posts

Saturday, September 17, 2011

186. CRIME and PUNISHMENT

Fyodor Dostoevsky 1866

Set in St. Petersburg Russia, this classic's protagonist is Rodion Raskolnikov, a young man in the prime of his life who premeditate the murder of money-lender Alyona Ivanovna just for the mere fact that he believes he can get rid of a vile person he considers not fit to live. He  commits the brutal crime and suffers the consequences of his guilty conscience, constantly vacillating between remorse and self-justification for the horrible act. His acquaintance with investigator Porfiry Petrovich who suspects him of the murder and love interest Sonia further complicates this conflict and compounds this highly thought-stimulating psychological thriller.

'On an exceptionally hot evening early in July a young man came out of the garret in which he lodged in S. Place and walked slowly, as though in hesitation, towards K. Bridge.'(opening lines)

'This evening, however, on coming out into the street, he became acutely aware of his fears.
"I want to attempt at thing like that and am frightened by these trifles," he thought, with an odd smile. "Hm ... yes, all is in a man's hands and he lets it all slip from cowardice, that's an axiom. It would be interesting to know what it is men are most afraid of. Taking a new step, uttering a new word is what they fear most ...'(2)

'Trifles, trifles are what matter! Why, it's just such trifles that always ruin everything...'(3)

'There are chance meetings with strangers that interest us from the first moment, before a word is spoken.'(9)

'In order to understand any man one must be deliberate and careful to avoid forming prejudices and mistaken ideas, which are very difficult to correct and get over afterwards.'(31)

'In a morbid condition of the brain, dreams often have a singular actuality, vividness and extraordinary semblance of reality. At times monstrous images are created, but the setting and the whole picture are so truthlike and filled with details so delicate, so unexpected, but so artistically consistent, that the dreamer, where he an artist like Pushkin or Turgenev even, could never have invented them in the waking state. Such sick dreams always remain long in the memory and make a powerful impression on the overwrought and deranged nervous system.'(48)

'He was in full possession of his faculties, free from confusion or giddiness, but his hands were still trembling. He remembered afterwards that he had been particularly collected and careful, trying all the time not to get smeared with blood...'(69)

'Fear gained more and more mastery over him, especially after this second, quite unexpected murder. He longed to run away from the plaace as fast as possible. And if at that moment he had been capable of seeing and reasoning more correctly, if he had been able to realise all the difficulties of his position, his hopelessness, the hideousness and the absurdity of it, if he could have understood how many obstacles and, perhaps, crimes he had still to overcome or to commit, to get out of that place to make his way home, it is very possible that he would have flung up everything, and would have gone to give himself up, and not from fear, but from simple horror and loathing of what he had done. ... But a sort of blankness, even dreaminess, had begun by degrees to take possession of him; at moments he forgot himself, or rather forgot what was of importance and caught at trifles.'(71-72)

'Where is it I've read that someone condemned to death says or thinks, an hour before his death, that if he had to live on some high rock, on such a narrow ledge that he'd only room to stand, and the oceans, everlasting darkness, everlasting solitude, everlasting tempest around him, if he had to remain standing on a square yard of space all his life, a thousand years, eternity, it were better to live than to die at once! Only to live, to live and live! Life, whatever it may be!'(139)

'Through error you come to the truth! I am a man because I err! You never reach any truth without making fourteen mistakes and very likely a hundred and fourteen. And a fine thing, too, in it's way ... To go wrong in one's own way is better than to go right in someone else's. In the first case you are a man, in the second you're no better that a bird. Truth won't escape you, but life can be cramped.'(176)

'Again that awful sensation he had known of late passed with deadly chill over his soul. Again it became suddenly plain and perceptible to him that he had just told a fearful lie -- that he would never now be able to speak of anything to anyone.'(200)

'If he has a conscience he will suffer for his mistake. That will be his punishment...'(230)

'Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep heart. The really great men must, I think, have great sadness on earth...'(230)

'You see I kept asking myself then: why am I so stupid, that if others are stupid -- and I know they are -- yet I won't be wiser? Then I saw, Sonia, that if one waits for everyone to get wiser it will take too long ... Afterwards I understood that that would never come to pass, that men won't change and that nobody can alter it and that it's not worth wasting effort over it. Yes, that's so. That's the law of nature, Sonia ... that's so ... And I know now, Sonia, that whoever is strong in mind and spirit will have power over them. Anyone who is greatly daring is right in their eyes. He who despises most things will be a law-giver among them and he who dares most in the right! So it has been till now and so it will always be.'(359)

'... do you know to what a point of insanity a woman can sometimes love?'(407)

a Bantam Classic Edition
472 pages
Book owned.  Read in St. Petersburg, Russia.
Book qualifies for: 2011 Victorian Challenge
                               100+ Reading Challenge

Monday, August 22, 2011

180. A KIND of INTIMACY

Jenn Ashworth 2009

From the very beginning of this book, one feels that all is not right with Annie Fairhurst, the 28 year old narrator of this psychological thriller. Guided by her self-help books and armed with a highly embellished past, she moves into a new neighborhood and quickly makes new friends with next-door neighbors Lucy and Neil, and the Neighborhood watch leader Sangita and her husband Barry Choudry. But all is not well with Annie.  So when she fools herself into thinking that Neil is in love with her, she obsesses about destroying his relationship with his girlfriend, Lucy. And the little shred of goodwill she may have  managed to instill in the reader is quickly ruined by the slow unraveling of her sordid self.

'After the van had been loaded and sent on its way I took off all my clothes and kicked the sofa I was about to abandon. Not just a little kick either. I really belted it.'(opening lines)

'I was angry, to tell you the truth. To have to stand there in the sanctuary of my own garden, doing nothing more sinister than enjoying a warm evening, and then suffer the verbal assault of a woman I'd never even met, well, it was more than I could take.'(Chap.2, Loc.270)

'Although I was nervous, I smiled as I waited, flitting about the house making sure everything was straight and wishing my old neighbours could see me. I wasn't that traumatized naked woman hysterically kicking a sofa anymore: I was the hostess of a housewarming party, wearing a fancy party dress and patiently waiting her guests.'(Chap.3, Loc.398)

'The new books I'd been reading said that asking questions of people at parties made them think you were interesting but that didn't really make sense, and the book also said not to make the questions too personal, but they didn't tell what too personal was.'(Chap.3, Loc.440)

'The thing about Lucy, really, was the way she looked. It revealed a lot about who she was on the inside, to my mind. All that female flapping and concern didn't wash with me. She really did have the most feline features: wide square nails polished like claws, that stretched skin over her face, and no, I'm not embellishing, curious, clever eyes so green it didn't matter that they weren't almond-shaped at all. Her irises were contracted small in the bright light from the fluorescent strip on the ceiling and she blinked once before pouncing. I like cats, I do, but I know what they're capable of and I wasn't about to let Lucy paw me about like an injured bird while she was a guest in my house.'(Chap.5, Loc.772)

'I can only explain my behaviour as an adolescent outpouring of exuberance; a long postponed eruption of youthful enthusiasm that had been cut short by my early marriage. When it was over, I awoke from it dazed and exhausted, nauseous and somewhat shamefaced. At twenty-eight, most people would expect me to have grown out of such things, but, as I said, most people were not aware of the special circumstances attached to my case.'(Chap.7, Loc.1104)

'You're exactly right,' I said, 'there's no point making yourself unhappy for the sake of someone else. You've got to go out and make it happen, there's no point staying where you are and hoping that things will change when they won't.'(Chap.8, Loc.1257)

'It was very important to me that this house, which represented a new life and a new start, did not become associated with the problems of my past. As I lay there I realised, with an increasing sense of irritation, that my previous life was still trailing its influence over my current one. The house-warming party, which had seemed like such a good idea at the time, had actually been the occasion when these people had started to embed themselves in my life and I had allowed them to become unnecessarily embroiled in my history.'(Chap.10, Loc.1690)

'Loving Yourself: Tips for the Single Woman had contained a whole chapter about the effects personal grooming and fashion could have on a person's self-esteem, and had suggested that a woman who makes the effort to present herself in the best possible light would exude confidence and therefore become more attractive to others.'(Chap.11, Loc.1803)

'They say that falling in love is the same as being scared,' I said simply, 'the men on the rope bridge were scared, and they mistook it for falling in love. Most people have it all tangled up in their heads.'...'Some people get it all mixed up.'(Chap.12, Loc.2368)

'He looked uncertain, and didn't meet my eye. A sure sign he was shy too. And that was good: it showed that he thought of me and cared about the impression he was making so much it was making him self-conscious. I was worth being shy around, as far as Neil was concerned.'(Chap.15, Loc.2987)

'I rechecked the periwinkle on my eyelids, fixed a smudge and was ready to go when I heard the knock at the door. I wasn't surprised at the interruption, fate has a way of making us work hard for the things that we want, and I've come to realise it is so we value our dreams all the more dearly when they finally come to fruition.'(Chap.19, Loc.3597)

'The thing is, I'd decided already that Neil needed help, that I was the person to help him, and for his own good all traces of the woman had to be removed from his home. How else would he have the room to think? How else would he have room for me?'(Chap.20, Loc.3855)

Kindle Edition, 2011
4421 Locations
Book owned 
Book qualifies for: 100+ Reading Challenge
Book idea from Diane @ Bibliophile by the Sea. I had to read the book she mentioned as her best read so far in 2011. Her very convincing review is HERE.